A Wild Calling

A Wild Calling

I started re-reading Clarissa Pinkola Estes’ book Women Who Run With the Wolves about a month ago. The very short synopsis is that it’s a conglomeration of ancient folk stories, myths and fairy tales from all over the world that illustrate the importance of holding onto the wild is present in all women (and men).  The book is about the powerful force, filled with good instincts, passionate creativity, and ageless knowing that is the ‘Wild Woman’, the energy that represents the instinctual nature of women.

Reading this book is making me ask questions of my own story and the stories that dictate my way of being in my family, in my community and in the world.   Some of these stories are mine.  Some of them are not. Some of them are stories that have the potential to move me further into my own story, the one that is best suited to how I want to show up in life.  And some of them are stories that I have let overshadow my own, even though they don’t serve what I need and have the potential to create pain and struggle. Continue reading “A Wild Calling”

It’s Only A Door

It’s Only A Door

“The door itself
makes no promises.
It is only a door”
~Adrienne Rich

Crossing that thresold into your uncharted future is an act of great courage and self compassion, and it changes your relationship to life in a fundamental way. It embodies your willingness to employ a new form of risk taking, to consciously choose growth-stimulating, soul-nourishing conflicts, to live through the accompanying anxiety, and to accept your life as open ended and unpredictable. Passing through the door commits you to living in the present in a way you never before have.  ~Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft

Have you seen that movie, Sliding Doors?  I have to admit that I don’t really remember the plot very well, other than in tandem story lines, Gwyneth Paltrow’s character misses her train by seconds as the doors slide shut in one and in the other she makes it and goes on with her day as planned.  Her choices as a result of missing the train and going through a different door alter the course of her life almost beyond recognition.  In the movie, at least as I remember it, she doesn’t consciously choose to miss the train of course.  But she does and goes through a different door that she normally would have chosen, and we see the chain reaction of events that emerge.  It can be a scary thing, a door.  An unwanted thing.  And it can be life changing. Continue reading “It’s Only A Door”

Eternal

Eternal

When we are facing doubt and hopelessness…

We remember that hardship, suffering, day to day monotony and feeling trapped are impermanent. Even when we feel like our entire life is made up of nothing but strife and struggle, we can remember that what feels like our entire life is simply our ‘life situation’. Our soul – our true Being – is outside of what we tend to experience on the surface. We are good at forgetting that our Being has more power than the hardships that pepper the current human experience.

When we see and hear others discounting what we know to be truth…..

We remember that everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and their own version of truth, so long as it doesn’t harm anyone else. Words have power – but in the end, words are just marking posts, a way for the human mind to try to convey what is felt in the in the soul.  Sometimes the language of the soul doesn’t translate when we try to speak it in words, no matter how eloquently or intelligently we communicate.  Being has more power than any speech, document or legality.

When it seems like nothing will ever change in our day to day human, bodily experience….

We remember that living in a body is but one part of our Being. We try to give thanks for the experience, regardless of what has already come to pass and regardless of any worry about what is still to come. We accept that whatever our life situation, it is essential – just as it is – for our soul to get what it needs.

I don’t know what it’s like to go to bed hungry after not eating for the third day in a row. I don’t know what it’s like to spend every minute of every day afraid that my community might be attacked by armed forces because there is a war going on all around me. I don’t know what it’s like to survive a physical assault and live with the raw fear that it might happen again. I don’t know what it’s like to wonder where my child is because someone decided to take her from me.

But though I haven’t experienced the deep suffering that so many other beings have, I can say that I do know what it’s like to wake up and feel nothing but sadness.  I know what it’s like to feel isolated and cut off from everything except the melancholy tale that my mind wants to tell over and over again.  I know what it’s like to feel trapped in a system that doesn’t give out free lunch.   I know what it’s like to have a voice that wants to be heard and not know how to use it in a way that others can understand.

And maybe most importantly, I know that the the souls that experience any hardship – regardless of scale or depth –  are wise, and strong.  Perhaps we experience such situations to help the universe know what it’s like to feel separated from others, to sit in despair and to want for something different.  That job has been done, and done again.  And again.

Yet in the midst of such despair and challenge, the thing that we are never cut off from is our Being: the part of us that is completely attuned to the rhythms of the earth and the pulse of creation.  The soul and breath of something greater than ourselves lives within us and remains steadfast at our core. That breath is a light that will not go out.

So when we wonder how things could ever possibly change, and when we have no idea how change might occur on the surface of our human experience, when we are impatient or facing challenge, and when we can’t see past the suffering the world has been though, we can remember that our Being is taking every experience we have in our physical body on the earth and is using it to help us manifest the reality that is ours, and ours alone, perfect in its own right.

At our core essence, there is no doubt, hopelessness or despair.  There is only light, love and the freedom to be.